Project Unf*ckwithable: Accountability Update

Here is the promised update on Project Unf*ckwithable. I don't feel ready yet, but that's the nature of accountability — it forces growth whether you feel ready or not.

ACCOUNTABILITY:

It's gone fairly well. Lost myself a few times (once badly), but not judging myself much about it.

That's progress. How? Well, losing myself is in the past. Judging myself about the past just makes me lose myself again in the present. And what really matters is how I am in the present. By not judging, I give myself the best chance at serenity now.

LEARNING:

Project Unf*ckwithable (PUFW) is my top priority. But so is finishing the manuscript for The Successful Associate. So, I'm sitting here with two top priorities ... and realizing that means I don't have one. I've been doing reasonably well on these priorities ....

BUT not as well as I'd like.

And not meeting my expectations feels shitty.

And even though my expectations are just thoughts, they can still pull me out of serenity and straight into being f*ckwithable.

It's so circular that it's hard to capture:

• I thought it was a good idea to commit to PUFW, so I did.

• I have thoughts about what progress should look like, and I measure myself.

• And those thoughts make me f*ckwithable, and I lose myself.

🤔 My thoughts are probably the main obstacle.

"The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven." - Milton

This is not like a recovering alcoholic in AA who can abstain from drinking. Since I cannot abstain from thinking, I'll need to figure out a different way of relating to my thoughts.

In fact, poorly relating to our thoughts is usually the culprit when we have a great life but feel shitty.

What impact are your thoughts having on you?